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       ❜You don’t need to thank me,❜ the blonde replied shortly as she led the twins back into their tent, watching the relief in their eyes. Who would blame them? This sick man — Dandy was his name, Elsa believed — would have killed them, sooner or later. Them, her beloved, precious monsters, her family. Bette, probably the purest person the diva ever met, smiled gratefully at the older woman. Of course she had to thank her! ❜Oh, Miss Elsa, we do! Imagine what would’ve happened if—❜, ❜Well, thank you, yeah,❜ Dot simply interrupted her sister, nodding once. But Bette’s excitement was way too big to shut up. She bit her bottom lip and hesitated, before she pressed her soft lips to Elsa’s cheek, quickly pulling back and giggling like a little girl. ❜We’ll make it up to you.❜(…)

       (…) Slender digits tugged impatiently on the warm blanket as Bette stared into the mirror. It was so dark, she almost could not see her own reflection. The only sound she could hear was the soft breathing of her sister who was asleep, luckily. But when someone entered their lavish tent,the sleepy Bette widened her eyes. She was here. Elsa slowly made her way towards the twin’s large bed, so that she could kneel down by Bette’s side, who offered the older woman a big smile. The other returned the smile lightly and raised one eyebrow. ❜Is she sleeping, hm?❜ Towards the question, the twin nodded and bit her bottom lip. Since she obviously lost her voice, Elsa decided to continue. ❜So, what is it, that you want? Now, that you’ve got your blonde hair, what is it?❜, she whispered quietly, but loud enough for the younger woman to hear. For a moment, the tent was silent and Bette’s nervousness grew. She knew that she had to say it now — or else the singer would be gone again. So, she whispered, eventually relieving her bottom lip: ❜I’ve never shared a kiss with another person before.❜ Ha, she must be kidding, Elsa thought, does she really want me to … ? ❜I know, it sounds odd, but I—I want to know what it feels like. You’re the only person I could ask.❜ The German diva took a deep breath and glanced down at the sleeping Dot, before locking her and Bette’s gaze again. Only a second and it will be over. One second. Elsa gave her a small nod and leaned over her head as her hand gently found Bette’s cheek, stroking her soft, young skin with her thumb. All of a sudden, Bette’s heart started to race and she had no clue what to do. Where should she place her hand? Eyes shut or open? And her tongue, what the hell should she do with her tongue? But before Bette could worry about other things, she felt Elsa’s lips on her own and her eyes fell shut. Instinctively, she tangled her hand in the woman’s curls. This felt much better than Bette expected it to be. (…)

       (…) ❜I know what you’ve done.❜Dot’s voice sounded harsh, almost like a threat. Elsa furrowed her eyebrows at the brunette, trying hard to keep herself from saying horrible things she would regret. ❜It was her wish. I’ve done what she wanted, got it?❜ ❜— She’s asleep, would you finally stop being so loud?❜, Dot hissed, staring up at the blonde’s face who rolled her eyes and shook her head. Again, she was told to come to the twin’s tent at night, but this time, it was Dot who wanted to talk to her. ❜She talked about you, in her sleep. And we saw you this morning at breakfast, she couldn’t stop staring at you. Don’t tell me you didn’t realize that.❜ Elsa huffed in response, but caught herself thinking about this for a moment. Did Bette stare at her? If so, why? ❜And you wanted me to come here, so that you can tell me all these things? Ha. It was nice to talk to you.❜ The brunette clenched her jaw. This was not the reason, no. As Elsa was about to stand up, Dot saw her chance. She quickly grabbed a fistful of those blonde curls who had always looked so soft, and pulled Elsa’s head closer to hers. With that, the younger woman pressed her lips against the other’s, in a more forcing, angry kiss. And Elsa? Oh — she hated that it felt good … (…)

       (…) Elsa took a deep breath and ran her fingers through her hair. ❜Stop crying, will you?❜Dot bit her bottom lip hard and squeezed her eyes shut. Not even the alcohol that was running through her and Bette’s vein could keep the brunette from crying. A broken heart could not be healed in such a short time, that was what Jimmy taught her when he rebuffed her, after she had exposed their bare chest to them. She had been such a fool … And now, she was crying in front of the ringleader who hesitantly placed her hand on Dot’s shoulder. ❜I’m sorry, this wasn’t meant  to — sound that harsh. You should rest. It looks like alcohol won’t make it better, ❜Elsa added in a softer voice and rested her hands on the girls’ cheeks as they looked up at the older woman. She looks so beautiful tonight, Bette thought, so that her sister could hear it. She always does, Dot replied silently. ❜Won’t you stay with us for a while?❜ , a giggling Bette asked as the corners of Dot’s mouth curled up into a small smirk. Elsa frowned and opened her mouth to talk about how this was a bad idea, but when the girls exchanged a look and pressed their lips to the older woman’s cheeks, she changed her mind and remained silently. Dot was the first one to speak as she whispered in the German’s ear: ❜Will you stay with us now?❜ (…)

       (…) ❜You can’t change my mind.❜The twins stared at Elsa as she replied. She had been their savior, a maternal figure, the one who led them to the Freak Show and all its amazing people - their new family. After she became famous, it got harder for the three of them to meet, but for some reason, they managed it, although the girls were officially married to Jimmy. Which turned out to be a terrible mistake. And now she wanted to leave them again? ❜I’ve no choice, you don’t understand.❜ The blonde ran her fingers through her hair and grabbed her handbag. Dot furrowed her eyebrows at the sight and shook her head slightly. ❜What’s the deal, Elsa? Are you scared of your own feelings? Running away is no solution, that’s what you’ve always told us.❜The German diva wanted to stay, of course she did, but she was scared. And an Elsa Mars could not admit such thing. ❜I am not scared. I am aware of the consequenzes if we kept going like this and we can’t. He’ll find it out.❜, ❜So what? We know that you feel the same. You — showed us so many times before and now, all of a sudden, you want to go?❜ Bette’s sweet weak voice made Elsa hesitate for a moment. They would not understand. What if somebody found out about them? She would lose her show, that was for sure. Her career would be ruined. And she could not risk that. Being a famous star had always been her dream, after all. She cupped the girls’ cheeks gently and shook her head, not knowing what to say. Then, she leaned in to give both of them a warm kiss on their forehead. The last kisses they would ever receive from her?  ❜I was wrong. I cannot give you what you want, what you need. I’m not good enough, face it. I’ve killed those people by selling the show. I can’t make you happy.❜ Dot looked angry, but Bette’s face was one of the saddest things Elsa had ever seen. It broke her heart into millions of pieces. Because each of them knew —

                                                — it was true.